The Pimple, The Mole and Love

Thinking love in its most unusual way is really fun. To think about it strangely will somehow help us view it in a clearer perspective.

Love as a pimple. Like love, pimples develop unexpectedly. They may grow in parts and time we least expect. The more you give attention to it, the more it becomes obvious. The growth of this postule represents how love grows. The bigger it gets the more it can potentially hurt us. And how can we manage the pain pimples bring? Of course, it should be ruptured. This one-time pain (rupture)can ease all the pain it brings. The same is true with love. If love brings pain, and the pain grows day by day then it will be perfect to end it for good. Like rupturing  the pimple, it may be very painful, but letting go of the one’s hurting us can spare us from future pain. Scar will result and that’s inevitable, but the scar is justifiable. Instead of associating the scar as a painful past, we should rather see it as a symbol of one’s bravery .

Love as a mole. If love is to be described as a mole, one thing comes into our mind---PERMANENCE. Like the mole, love can last forever if we want to. Love brings permanent marks into our lives. The love we give and the one’s we receive will be forever treasured. That’s why we tend to give love unlimitedly. No doubt it’s a very good thing to do—if and only if it’s the right love and in the right amount. Have you heard about the famous line that, “Too much love kills.”?  I really agree and  I’m pretty sure it can.

The mole like love that grows uncontrolably is indeed unhealthy. Both to grow in the way we did not expect is bad. That’s MALIGNANCY. Love if unhealthy is like cancer---it kills us little by little. So how do we manage this before it causes our death? If the mole is malignant, then it requires surgical removal of the malignancy (to remove it permanently away from your system). The same applies with love. If that particular person brings  unhealthy love, then you have to remove him/her entirely from your life; and leaving some of the memories is not advised. Like cancer cells, it can grow back and proliferate again---EVEN BRING BACK THE PAIN.

Pimples and moles aren’t love. They’re just products of my bitterness from the past. I maybe hurt, stupified, deprived  and judged but look at the brighter side...I learned.

Love is good if that love is true.

Love is better if that love can endure.

And love is best if that love is pure.

Koreanization

After taking the oath of my chosen profession, I embraced unemployment for more than three months (believe me it's really deadly). I have nothing to do but wait for the sun to rise and set. It was absolute boredom.

The Students

One evening, it's almost midnight when I received a text message from Judd. He's asking me if I'm interested  to work. At that very moment, the answer to my boredom is about to save me. At first I have doubts but before 12:01 a.m. I had a positive confirmation.


Immediately next day, we went to a Korean academy with our resumes on hand. I had my very first encounter with a Korean. It was very overwhelming and I had a strange feeling while conversing with him. Fortunately, Judd and I passed the exam and we started to work three days after we applied. 


First day. I never expected in my whole life that I'll be working as an English tutor. O fcourse, who am I to do so. English had never liked me and the same is true with me---I never liked English as well. I saw familiar faces when I entered the study room. Nomer, Jen and Lovelyn were there. And by surprise, I found out that most of the tutors were also nurses.  somehow, it gave me an idea that I  also belong there.

Jerry

Daniel

Kelly and Jeniffer

The Tutors

It has been more than three months since I started working there. Great? Yeah right..#@$%

Bitter: Never been better

"I love her?"

...." Yeah, more than myself."

"I need her?"

...."Yeah, more than anything else."

"I miss her?"

...."Yeah, like crazy?"

"She loves me?"

...."I hate that question."

Amicus

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."

"parts", "meg", "tol" are some common names I remember my friends call me---and i miss this. For many years I'm studying, I met and made friends with people who first I consider strangers. As time goes by, these strangers eventually became family.

Remembering the things we do in the past; our misadventures, the mistakes we did together, and all the strangest things in the world that we tried surely would draw a smile in my face.


Bakbak Ryderz. Kim, Clark and Troy were the original and absolutely my first best friends . I don't know exactly how, when and where we became friends but I'm sure that friendship is indeed the greatest. I still can't forget all the the strange things we did together. It's like it happened only yesterday. Too bad we studied separately in different high schools. :L


"We're maybe the cockiest and the most troublesome students when we were in grade school but we prove our words with our actions. We graduated and we took it all. The bad ones got the best ones."


.... Si Troy palagtiklagtik pa da kay @#%!!%
.... Pangita siya patas sunlog ya ko sa upod ni @#%!!%
.... Si Clark maintra pa gid. Si kwan man iya... Grade 5 man.
.... Si Kim, ano iya trip ni man? Nan...kabua naman da kapid mo!

Bakbak Ryders

Teh sige ah... Alas cinco na.. Kadto na ta kay Maam Homicillada.

LEDS. I thought they were bad. Guess what? I'm right. They made me realize that sometimes it's nice to be evil(evil laugh). I have brothers when i"m with them.. I could not ask for more.

LEDS

"Lima-lima nyu da.. Mabakal na si Guyguy. Kita maplastar."

The Lunchmates. The smartest seat mates I ever had. Thanks to them I included studying as part of my daily routine---fortunately, all of us passed NLE. 

The Luchmates

"Sa Sunday lang ma Mang Inasal. Carinderia lg ta anay subong.."

PM Pipz.With all the things that happened in this group, I say PM Pipz ROCKS!

PM Pipz

"Evs, si Loven to uh..."

Peanuts. Simply the BEST group I ever had. The only I'm comfortable with. Common ideas, common beliefs, common interests and common enemies---I'm home! Miss you peanuts!(:

Peanuts

"Didto naman ta sa BH ni Adz.... Para Sadya!"

MIT(Macho in Training). The second group I created. I don't know what this group really does but I'm sure it's great. Perhaps I hypnotized Judd and evan to be members of this org (Im not sure).

Macho in Training

"Teh Judd ano ni? Ano haw? Sige, si Evan na lg.."

The Demigodz. The immortal group where I belong. Started from a strange idea, maintained by our insanity and extended by our perverted ways. Bogs and Lemuel who were my original bestfriends when I stepped college, we created this group with Goddess (Crystal) as our superior. We do the craziest things, say the craziest words and imagine the craziest ideas---simply crazy. We don't care what other people say as long as we do the things in the name of Goddess. This friendship we created will be preserved immortally in me.

The Demigodz

"If Buddha is the enlightened one...Goddess is the enlightenment of Buddha.."

Friends.... Without you, I can never be me.

I'm in

"Nothing endures but change."

with my sister Roxy

There are times that we need to divert from the straight line. Sometimes, this change in the direction would look strange(probably ridiculous) but seems really necessary (in my case maybe).

Yesterday, I was interviewed by the COL's Dean and he confirmed that I passed. That's probably that sign of a new start. This June I'll be entering a new world; entirely different from the world I came from.

I may not practice what I have studied but I'm sure I'll retain my title: R.N. as Raph Nhey and my degree B.S.N. as "Bana Sg Nurse" (I'm really sure I'll marry a nurse).

This is it...

I'm in and I decided to take it!

Crazy Beautiful: A Bitter View of Love

Sometimes great love exist in crazy situations. Drastic as it is, LOVE having no fixed definition extends its meaning to extremes. Some define love so pure as it is in the Holy Scriptures and some define it as something directly proportional to the impurity of their pervertedness. This state of love being so relative made it sometimes (no..it’s most of the time actually) irrational---definitely crazy.

Pokak holding Miming

“You will never  know what you can do when you’re in love.”, they always say. Some became virtually stupid. So obsessed of their fantasies (love stories in novels), they turned themselves into dreamers (people who successfully merged “dream world” with “real world”). Because of this strange phenomenon,  dreaming while awake became possible, day dreaming at night occured and unusual smiles happened. I call this the Rough Knee’s Syndrome.

Some experienced states of analgesia. They became martyrs and endured pain for love (I’m not sure if it’s really love). Some resulted to desperate measures. They attempted to end their lives (sometimes other people’s lives). And they claimed they did it in the name of love. Hard to believe but true.

Try to find yourself:

•   “I waited more than six years for nothing. It’s okay, I still love her.”
•  “His girlfriend is taller than me, prettier than me, and he loves her more than me. I’m still hopeful.”
• “It’s okay to be number two. It’s next to number one and better than number three.”
•  “Patience is a virtue. I waited nine years what’s another five?”
•  “I’m hoping that one day she’ll wake up and love me finally.”
• “It’s not love if it’s not her.”
•  “He said he loves me more than his grlfriend. I did believe him.”
•  “My heart is breaking everytime I see him with my bestfriend.”
•  “He said he changed because of me. After one year I’ll surrender my virginity.”
•  “Last week he texted me as if I was his girlfriend. This week, It’s heaven if he’ll text “hi”.”
•  “He’s cheating but it’s okay because he said he loves me.”

The human brain functions 24 hrs/day, 365 days/year, until you fall for someone. I think this explains everything.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah... 

"Your love for her isn't stupid...you are!"

Your love for her isn't stupid...you are

It's quite surprising to hear such comment from a 14 year old Korean girl. In the middle of my class with her, she asked, "Raph, why are you nurse?". I answered with a smile," I don't know". She then displayed an angry look after she heard my answer. Scared that she will not cooperate in our lesson, I somehow shared some of the things I shouldn't. I told her, " I became a nurse because of a girl. The time I knew she will take nursing, it's the same time I decided to take the same course". She looked at me as if she didn't agree. "Raph, that's stupid.", she said.I immediately reasoned out, "You don't know what you can do when you're in love. I love her very much and I'll do anything to be with her. That's not stupid."  She laughed maliciously and said, "Raph, your love for her isn't stupid...YOU ARE!". My brain stopped as if I'm in coma. I can see stars in dark skies. I even have a sensation that something is squeezing my spleen. But then I realized that the girl is really right. Oh my God... I'm really stupid.